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Day 2: Burning Butt, Aching Gut

November 17th, 2006

When Sioux and I did the Master Cleanse 4 years ago, we made a huge pot of the stuff and we’d have afternoon tea. In the book we read, they suggested getting peppermint tea to use as a laxative to help facilitate additional elimination and to take it each afternoon. I had found that for me, that was not a particularly effective choice and during my first cleanse, I hadn’t had nearly the quantity of bowel movements I thought one should expect for such a deep cleanse. I was happy to read about a different alternative this time, which is tea with senna leaf in it. I rather enjoyed the taste of it and was glad to discover in no way did it seem a chore to drink the tea. As a matter of fact, on day one, I had 2 cups of it.

Now one of the things they warn you about is that when you’re eliminating, you’ll experience any number of possible things which is a clear indication that the cleanse is in fact working. One of these things, while rare, does happen, This would be having burning bowel movements. After about the 6th shit in maybe 2 hours of this nature (I probably totaled 12 in the first 3.5 to 4 hours of the day), I was sure the cleanse was working. That, of course, and the extreme cramps and aches in my gut. It was wonderful to sit with the sensations and during my meditations on day two I got to some deep places of release and cried more than once what Mark would undoubtedly call healing tears.

And, I didn’t take any tea that night because I was not ready for a repeat on vipassana day 3.

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Top Tips for Face Care: A perspective from a lay person

As a professional performer who is always doing photo shoots, I am very grateful for the ways in which I’ve taken care of my face over my 40 yearsMe 'n my 40 year old face. :) . Here are some of the thoughts I have on why my skin looks as good as it does for my age — aside from the generic 40 is the new 20. I actually have a face care ritual that I follow and it’s come up lately, now that I’m in my 40’s, as something to share with other’s who appreciate my really awesome skin — a fair trade off for a big ass if you ask me. ;) LOL!!!

The first section below is about the actual products and practices for external care.

  1. First, and foremost, I always, always, always use a face cream with sunblock during the day. If you’re going to bother to put cream on your face, why not a cream that offers you the extra protection from the sun? I am particularly sensitive to this point as someone who has a sun allergy. I’m a HUGE fan of Murad products. For day cream, I use the essential C line which has SPF 30. It’s super expensive in stores, but you can get an 8 oz jug (which lasts especially well if you use the toner with it and I’ve had for my last one for about 9 months) for about $80 on ebay. If you buy it in smaller tubes it’s like $25 or something retail. It’s completely crazy.
  2. Before I use the moisturize, I actually use a toner. I used to think toner’s were just a bunch of BS. What I found, after trying a sample for a while with my cream, was that the toner actually mixes with the cream and allows me to use *less* cream which more than makes up for the cost of the toner itself. Toner is relatively cheap and long lasting compared to cream, and something about the moisture of the toner I use (also from the Essential C Murad Line) combined with the cream really has me use just pea sized dollops of cream rather than dime or larger sized amounts. It makes a big difference in cost as well as the consistency of the cream as it is applied to my face.
  3. After I tone and also before the moisturizer, I also use a skin renewing product. Generally I use the Essential C skin renewing complex from Murad, though I have used some of the capsules from Dermatologica and even the Walgreen brand capsules. They all work. That said, the Murad Essential C formula visibly reduces the lines on my face within 2 minutes of application. No shit. So while this stuff costs a lot (it’s $95 retail but again, you can get it on EBay for $50-$60 for a 2 oz jar) but goes a long way and has far better results than other face creams I’ve used.
  4. Especially in the winter and when my face is dry, I use an additional night cream. Being the big fan of Murad that I am I actually use their Body Firming Cream. I LOVE it. I figure, if it firms my body, why wouldn’t it firm my face? I said that to one of the women at the Murad counter at PureBeauty and she said that she was surprised it didn’t feel problematic on my face — I guess it’s a more harsh formula.
  5. Home Facials. They are a great way to do affordable self care when you can’t go to a spa and get a professional one — which I absolutely recommend!

Now there’s a whole other series of things which are less obvious about your internal care and how it impacts your face and its aging.

  1. Hydration. Water cleanses every part of your body — inside out. So remain hydrated.
  2. Reduction of daily stress on system. This means healthy drinks — dropping the coffee, the latte, soda and of course low alcohol consumption helps too. Low/no caffeine intake as well as low alcohol intake is one of the things I believe has helped me.
  3. No smoking. ’nuff said.
  4. Daily affirmation. My personal affirmation while I’m cleaning my face as well as applying my skin care products goes something like this: “I am young and healthy. I am vibrant. I have the cell regeneration of a peak performing human body. I look vital.” I have been doing this affirmation for years and I truly believe it has helped me to have the skin I have.

Having been a vegan, vegetarian to different degrees, pescatarian and meat eater, I can’t say that meat consumption has done anything negative to the look of my skin. I also think this is a personal thing. I know I started looking more healthy (less pale) when I reintroduced meat in limited quantities into my diet after taking a 10 year break. That’s just me — YMMV!

Hope this is useful!


Another Serged Fire Costume

This costume consists of an up cycled pair of pants combined with a simple wrap skirt and wrap top to match in bright pink and purple — two of my favorite colors.Serged costume

The pants were simple — cut the seam, serge the purple up the side and then attach the ties. The ties are made from serged purple “leaves” tied in a knot and sewn with a few hand stitches to the top of the purple stripe just below the waist band. I intended this so I could wear the pants without wearing the skirt as well as with the skirt and also to wear with street clothes to make them just a little more funky. I have this long standing fantasy of every outfit I wear (except gym clothes and lingerie) is some sort of funky cool costume. So gradually I’ve been upcycling the pants.

I like theSkirt tie with "leaf" shape tie on the pants a lot with all the “leaves” hanging in a cluster — it’s short enough to work with fire. I’m particularly happy with the vintage broach I attached onto the top to give it a little extra pizazz. The costume worked well — I used it for a few gigs and the photo shoot Love this Vintage Broach! featured in The City Exposed piece as well. it was well worth it, as a simple costume that took under 5 hours to throw together.


Upcycling a Dress into So Much More

Unfortunately, I have been forgetting to take photos of what I’ve been starting with so it really doesn’t help much in terms of comparison. Fortunately, Old Navy had this shot of the dress on line. Of course, the model doesn’t have my proportions — so figure shorter and more voluptuous!

Back view in my colorFront view in Grey -- just sub my colors and size. . .

One of the things I liked about this dress which was only $25, was that it had a lot of fabric that was fire safe as well as the gradient in the colors.

I combined it with a dupioni silk that matched almost perfectly and then I added appliques of a brocade silk in white on top of the dress part as well as the leg cuffs and arms cuffs. Though I don’t have a photo of just the dress without the skirt, I actually had originally intended that to be the look. However, as art will be, I decided that the dress was a little too short and then ended up adding the patch work top and skirt. I’m glad I did because, ultimately, I think they look better. The top is made of more silk than the dress itself, with just those three patches in the front under the breast. The skirt is half and half.

The other thing that close up of bracelet on leg cuffhad the costume work better without the dress is that I sewed on some vintage bracelets on top of the white applique on the dress, leg cuffs and arm cuffs. Sadly, on the dress, the bracelets broke the first time I wore it, which, in and of itself would not be a problem if I had sewed down every link on the bracelets, which I did not. You can see the bracelets here in some close ups of the leg cuffs and arm bands.

Bracelet on Arm Cuff


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Live the Dream

Mike Kepka did this great little mini feature on me in the Chronicle and SFGate this weekend. Live the DreamAfter reading some of the comments, I found myself outraged by the ways in which we choose our lives to be so filled with negativity. If this were the only place I saw this in my life, perhaps it wouldn’t be so impacting, though there are so many more things going on in my world right now that are contributing to the sense of outrage.

Anyway, I got a message today from a FB friend — a beautiful woman whom I’ve met once who was reaching out and just wanted to see how I was doing. I was quite moved.

My response follows:

You know, I have this policy in my life to live as authentically as possible. I could give you lots of shallow answers — I mean, hell, we barely have met, right?

but here’s the raw honest truth:
i am living my life on the edge of my capability and i have been for 7 years since i started the temple. i love it. i’m challenged by it. i’m driven to tears by it more often than i’d like.

and still, i believe as i sit here and cry that my willingness to uncompromisingly face my own fears, challenges and demons is the only thing i can contribute to this world that has never been given before because i am willing to surrender to the struggle, stand up and live fully, passionately and authentically, and, even when all else around me seems hopeless, Be who I am Called to be by something so much greater than what i think i *should* be and what i *know* would be an easier path.

Not sure — does that answer your question? felt good to say. . . ;)

thanks for asking. you have no idea how much that means. truly.


Theme of the Month

I’ve been reflecting on the past few months of my life and I have come up with little names for what’s been going on for me in each month and the theme of the month. I figured if I called a theme *in advance* rather than naming it as a reflection, perhaps I’d get more of what I want.

My last few months have been something like this:

  • March: Rebirth
  • April: Uprooting
  • May:   Opening
  • June:  Reconnection
  • July:  Crazy

So I call forth for my August: Grounding


Humor: George Carlin on Abortion

I call this humor, but really, this is a socio-political commentary as well! It’s a fabulous little piece. I can’t decide which line is my favorite:

  • how come when it’s us, it’s an abortion, but when it’s a chicken, it’s an omelet?
  • if a fetus is a person, how come the census doesn’t count them?
  • any woman who has more than one period is a serial killer.
  • Catholic, which I was, until I reached the age of reason…

Warning: Adult Language!

RIP George.


Fairy Costume in Green

This is the first (of hopefully many) serged costume I made and I didn’t use a regular sewing machine at all, though I did hand sew the rosette in the middle of the shirt onto the rest of it. Green Fairy Costume, first serged outfit

Green Fairy Costume, first serged outfitThe costume is designed to be worn in layers over a black shirt and pair of yoga pants for easy costume changes in public as well as less wear and tear on the outfit, as it doesn’t need to be washed as frequently and can simply be used for performance and taken off since all the sweat is on the bottom layer. In addition, having had many challenges over the years with costume malfunctions (especially breasts that just seem to have a mind of their own and want to be exposed to the cool night air), I have taken to wearing a bottom layer that I’m confident won’t spill out any of the good and will hold my body in the ways I want it to be held for fire. Bras simply have never worked that well for me, so shelf tanks are my thing.

Green Fairy Costume, first serged outfitThe idea was to create something that had contrast and would show up better in the fire than black alone might — the cactus color (lighter green) is going to be especially effective at that.

Green Fairy Costume, first serged outfitFor my body type, working with something tighter under the bust is often best with flowing fabric that is not fitted over the hips, stomach and butt. In this photo shoot, I’m not wearing the arm fringe. These are pieces that look like the knee fringe only they go above the elbow. (I hadn’t put the elastic in yet for this photo shoot.) Photos are taken at Samovar in the Castro by Addrianna.

The rosette in the bust area was inspired by my days at the Renaissance Fairs over a decade ago when I did bodice and costume fittings. Part of the process was to make rosette’s out of these long pieces of gauze cotton, so I learned that back then and was happy to apply it to this costume. I did not use a pattern and this was really the first thing I did with this serger, though I had some experience with Devin’s serger for the gauntlets I made while I was in Chicago. I’m certain that having a dress form would make this whole costume creation process much easier — doing the back of a shirt is really challenging when you can’t see what’s going on. :)


GlitterInjection of the Day

(For Pritpal…) Close your eyes (after you read this, of course) and feel into the part of you that believes in the wonder of the universe, of life around you. Find the part of that, no matter what goes wrong or how much turmoil is around you, has Hope beyond measure that, no matter what, Yes, We Can. We can be who we want to be, we can change how we want to change, we can find joy in the darkness of the night. Know that the same light that greets us in the morning, we bow to at noon and we witness in the setting sun… and even then, and in our darkest hour, that light is ALWAYS within us, ready to fill us up with joy. Your Light Is Within. All you need to do is reconnect to it in this moment. So dig in deep my friend, and find that place, and let that place fill you up as you breath. Let it fill every pore of your skin, ever fiber of your muscles, permeating the hardness of your bones and enriching each cell, through and through. Be the Light you already are.


Here’s Some Inspiration

When I was a kid, I used to watch my Dad jump rope. He pretty rigorously worked out with the jump rope multiple times a week and started doing cool tricks with it — double jumps, triple jumps, spinning in the air and arm crosses to name a few things. I was never quite that accomplished with a jump rope — I never really found my flow. 

The Kings Firecrackersother day, Michael forwarded me this clip of the US Naval Academy performance from the Kings Firecrackers, an all girl jump rope crew. The caption on the bottom of the video is really great: “Girls Do Incredibly Intricate Jump Rope Routine. At one point, the only way to explain their fancy moves is CGI.” This screen capture, for example, shows three girls jumping on their lower legs — yes, while they are kneeling!

Hope you enjoy this clip as much as I did. :)


Want a Discount Priced Facial?

My dear friend Jennifer, who is also my favorite female massage therapist, just expanded her business to include a bunch of new services. She’s just expanded her business to Marin and is offering a discount. Check out her offering below which includes her contact information. :)
Jennifer Warner Special


Friend’s Band Get’s Coverage on iTunes

I’m always inspired when people I know can achieve levels of success that get them brand recognition around the globe. Congratulations to friend Joshua Hoover and his band, Kapahaki, for their recent coverage in the “What We’re Listening To” selections in the Reggae genre. They will be having a CD release party this Friday night, June 19th, 2009  at Slims — 333 11th St. San Francisco. Doors open at 8, event starts at 9. Tickets available online.  Sample & pre-order the entire “LIGHT UP” album & get a FREE download of LIGHT UP @

Kapakahi featured in iTunes


It was a sign from God

I’ve told this story a few times recently and it has struck me that it’s some what miraculous and the coincidences don’t really seem to be too coincidental if you look at it as Divine Intervention. Now that would be a funny way to look at it except that I do think that Spirit did arise and speak to me. So while I think calling it Divine Intervention is a funny way to talk about it, I also think it is true.

In February 2001, I left my corporate job — the reasons for which I’ll leave to another post. Over the course of the next year, I went through many changes and lots of development. I began exploring my Self as an artist, communitarian, dancer, DJ, event producer and more. I gave up my “normal” life of stability and I opted to explore living from a place of authentic expression of my deepest truths even if (perhaps especially if) that did not include a normal job. I was determined to find a new job that allowed me to wear glitter to work since it was not okay at my corporate job. For me, that expression was one of the base criterion for my next full time job.

In Spring of 2002 I did an open studio’s show in Hunter’s Point. As I was preparing for the show on 4.20, I met a woman whose name was Hetana. She and her partner were using our warehouse space for a 4.20 party, which is how we met. I had enjoyed interacting with her and I went to say goodbye to her before leaving the warehouse and she said to me, “Nice meeting you Isa” or something like that. I mentioned my name was Lisa, but now that she’d said “Isa” I was thinking I was going to change it. Something about it just rang true to me.

Being a bit more conservative than I am today, I wasn’t as willing to trust my instincts, so I decided to sleep on it. For whatever reason, that night I slept in the loft over the kitchen. When I woke in the morning I looked down into the kitchen and, as if it was a sign from God, I saw my roommates girlfriend’s back have a tattoo of the letter “I-S-A” on her. Now, you have to understand I’d been living here for 4 months and Green (my roommate’s partner), whose name is also unusual (though that is her birth name also), had never worn a tank top while I was around the entire time. The letter in her tattoo are easily a few inches high.

Thinking I must be in a daze or dreaming or hallucinating or something, I call down to her and we have a conversation that goes something like this:
Me: “Green, what’s that on your tattoo back?”
Green: “It’s Isa.” (Pronounced e-SA with the emphasis on the SA not the E)
Me: “What does it mean?”
Green: “It means the one in Tagalog.” (Filipino language)

In that moment, I thought, “Wow. This is a sign from God. What are odds this would happen?” And so clearly seeing my name in writing on Green’s back was the clincher.

I had been having challenges actually feeling comfortable with my choice, but it seemed God was certain this was my choice. Less than two weeks later, one of my best friends at the time calls me up to tell me, “Do you know what Isa means? It means “Jesus” in Farsi.”

So I changed my name, dropping the “L” along with my corporate jobs, my preconceptions of who I should be and the limiting beliefs that had held me back in the past. I’m so glad I did. :)


Have you ever been so open walking down the street that you cry?

I was on the street the other day and was off in my own world, pondering my own sense of scarcity around money specifically. I was at the corner of 4th and mission waiting for the light. I was looking left and this guy came up to me on my right and asked, “Can you help me out?” and before I even looked at him I just said, “No.” And then as I was turning to look at him I said, as is my current practice in order to promote more people asking for what they need in the world fearlessly, “Thank you for asking.”

Then I took a look at him and I almost instantly started to cry. His manner was unassuming. He was polite in asking. He walked away and asked someone else when I said no.

He had no shoes on. His feet were black and rough looking.

I went into this cycle of thoughts around it and why my own immediate response was to say no. Lately I’ve been giving more frequently on the street. Not because I have more to give fiscally, but I have more openness to “feeling into” people’s experience and pain. And I remember what my friend Chris said to me years ago when I asked him why he gave so often. His
response was, “Because I would hope that if I were in that position, someone would give to me.”

What I also noticed was I was nearly debilitated by the experience. I’ve been doing so much work opening up in the last month that witnessing this man asking for help and shoeless had me crying before I was half a block away. My heart ached.

I ask:

How do you stay open and still stay functional without crying all the time or feeling sensations that stop you in your tracks? Maybe I’m just that sensitive. Thoughts?


This May Be My New Favorite Way to Get Comic Relief!

Thanks Brian M. for posting the link to this on Facebook this morning. This site is seriously ridiculous. Some of the posts are not funny to me, but some of them were so outrageous as to crack me up beyond belief. For example: 

(973): yeah for some reason your penis didn’t fit in my mouth the other day

Or this one: 

(44): What’s everyones problem with my costume?!
(1-44): It looks like a unicorn came on your face.

Or this one: 
 

(917): I’ve been thinking about all the girls in my life in terms of applying to college.
(518): Huh?
(917): I guess what im trying to say is that your my safety school. 

Or the one that really cracked me up this morning and truly had me post this here (because I just feel like I can personally relate to this and I'll leave it at that):

 

(440): Why do I fail so hard at ironing, when I’m a woman and i should be amazing at it?
(1-440): because god found you far too good at oral sex and had to make all things even? 

Texts From Last Night, my new favorite comic relief

Ladies and Gentleman, I give you Texts From Last Night, where their tag line is, Remember that text you shouldn’t have sent last night? We do. 


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